.Love | Marriage | Prop 8 | Religion | Policy.

Published November 8, 2008 Love , News 0 Comments
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So.. Recently we elected a new president and I was pleased with the choice the majority of Americans made. What annoys me though is this whole attack on us gaylordies. Now, those of you who know me — know I am not some huge gay activist and I rarely even like to  go to gay/les establishments BUT I am annoyed that we are still seen as second-class citizens by a lot of people in this country. Well, let me clarify. I really don’t care what people think of me or see me as — but if it spills into my own personal rights as a citizen of this country — then it kind of pisses me off. In my own calm temperamental way.

What place does Religion have in governmental policies? I’ll answer that for you — None. There is separation of church and state for good reason. The Bible or whatever holy book and ideologies you subscribe to can’t and should not dictate law and constitutional rights. I am shocked that California passed Proposition 8. I have had debates with those who agree that Marriage should only be defined as a union between man and woman and one argument I repeatedly hear is that “the people have spoken and this is what they want.” Oh, so because an opinion is shared by a majority– it makes it right? Are you aware that Supreme Courts were established in order to ensure that no laws may be passed by legislature, ballot, or executive order that are UNCONSTITUTIONAL. The Supreme Court in California decided and ruled that Proposition 22 violated the equal protection clause. This angered lots of religious bigots, and they stepped in and made sure that an entire class of people are now excluded from their rights.

The same arguments that were used against interracial marriages are used now against gay marriage. Oh, and if I hear homosexuality compared to pedophilia one more time… I will make out with a baby… Ok no..I won’t but… seriously. Come on.

What is so frightening about two people of the same sex getting married? How will that affect you personally? Does the idea of me and my wife at home arguing over laundry and who’s turn it is to clean the bathroom scare you? Will this make your arguments with your husband or wife less valid or meaningful? You can get married in 2 seconds at a DRIVE THROUGH in Vegas and get that same marriage annulled the next day. The divorce rate is 50%+ — please stop kidding yourselves that marriage is treated largely as this sacred serious union here. It’s not — and hasn’t been for a long time.
People get married here just so someone can gain a green card. But I can’t marry someone I am madly in love with?

I never had wedding fantasies when I was younger. Never had dreams of myself walking down the aisle in a white dress–or any dress for that matter. But once I have known what love is… I have dreamed of proposing … being engaged… and legitimizing the love I have for another. Why is that so threatening to some? I want to have a child, and some states passed a law that makes it impossible for unmarried couples to adopt. If gays can’t legally marry, then well, they also can’t adopt. Man, all these measures to stop love.

America has made strides in that we have elected a bi-racial president. But make no mistake, there is still rampant racism and prejudice.  We, collectively have taken a step forward, but at the same time took two steps back.

Music Spotlight: Rachael Yamagata; Elephants

Published August 27, 2008 Music 2 Comments
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Not much explanation is necessary… I just love this.

If the hawks in the trees need the dead, if you’re living you don’t stand a chance. For a time though you share the same bed. There are two ends to this dance.

You can flee with your wounds just in time, or lie there as [she] feeds,
watching yourself ripped to shreds and laughing as you bleed.

So for those of you falling in love, keep it kind, keep it good, keep it right.
Throw yourself in the midst of danger, but keep one eye open at night…

Rachael Yamagata; Elephants (Original)

http://www.myspace.com/rachaelyamagata (Listen to new version; beautiful)

Random Happy Moment.

Published August 19, 2008 Thoughts Random 0 Comments

Happiness is dinner with friends, stuffing your faces, laughing until tears form, and having a simple quote as
“Let’s all get fat and laugh about it”, be enough to put a smile on your face and take you back.

Lessons.Truths.Discovery.

Published August 19, 2008 Thoughts Random 1 Comment
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I don’t know how to really explain what has been happening internally to me the past several months. I alternate between feeling crazy and chaotic inside, to a state of peace, tranquility and calm. The last two nights for instance, I have found myself in silence trying to push away any harmful thought that enters my mind and just sit still — listening only to the sound of my heartbeat. It happens, that I am able to think of nothing and just focus on the repetition of my heart — it is brief, but it happens and immediately afterwards, I cry.

It is not a cry of pain, but that of gratitude. My cries are saying thank you, whoever “you” are, to offering me this moment of calm and peace. I want to hang onto this wonderful state of being, but I know, eventually (probably tomorrow!) I will slip back to reality and grant chaos and pain the ability to shake my foundation up again. It doesn’t frighten me as it would have before…I don’t fear it — I welcome these emotions, for I want to be able to move past them effectively, without causing myself too much harm. There is no reason not to believe that I have the power within, to stop that inner turmoil from overwhelming me. Everyone has this power.

I realize if I continue writing, I may come across as crazy to some (especially certain friends) …and I really don’t know how to formulate into words my own internal dialogues and experiences right now–as I am still trying to figure it all out. I know I am not unique in what I am doing. Painful/difficult events happen in a life — and from them you seek to find the lessons….Or because of that, you start examining yourself more carefully, and from that self-examination, lessons emerge.

Some lessons that have become my truths for instance:

1) Love is within you. Constantly seeking love from external sources without fully accepting the love you have inside will serve up disappointment. This is of no service to you. Feel full, from the love within. Then, when you do feel full, share it with another and it could very well be bliss.

2) You can choose to not suffer. Do not torture yourself by when feeling pain, further fueling that pain with more harmful thinking. If your curiosity, for example, will lead to more pain…stop being so curious.

3) Trust your intuition. Sometimes we seek answers in people or events, but the answers are already inside of us. You know instinctively what you need to know. That inner truth, at times, should be enough for you to be able to move through your days in harmony.  It is enough.

Those are the major lessons, so far, I have been given a glimpse into realizing.
Whenever I feel myself slipping–  I will remember what I am in the process of learning. It is a process, because I know I am not fully there yet. But…I will be.

Music Spotlight: Porcupine Tree

Published August 14, 2008 Music 1 Comment
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I should start logging the amount of time I spend dedicated to searching this vast endless net ocean for new music (and by new, I mean new to me). Let’s just say… it’s many hours. If I was more organized and dedicated, I could easily turn this into a semi-music blog, but eh… So for the time being I will sporadically post my newest findings.

One way I go about finding my latest music obsessions is by browsing the song history of Myspace users who like the same music as I. This can lead me to friends of friends….and that is how I found this song.

I won’t even get into how I then begin to make up stories in my head about why their song choices are as such. I create the dynamics of their romantic relationships through the music.  I get sad for them, and want to sometimes write them a quick note saying, “I’ve been there…I understand”…but they might just think I am a creepy stalker with no life so I refrain.

Back to the song:

It’s Porcupine Tree; Half Light and it is equal parts achingly beautiful and sad.

Enjoy…

.Frozen Pieces.

Published July 21, 2008 Love 0 Comments
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I haven’t written in a while…So much has happened since I last did.

I was in a relationship that ended. The short of it was — it was unhealthy for both of us and my already low self esteem suffered greatly as a consequence. Gained weight and recently lost 50 somewhat pounds.

I now find myself in a position somewhat of unrequited love, although it may not be so much unrequited as just…complicated. Wrong timing? Wrong geographical pinpoints? Who knows… All that I do know is that it hurts. A different kind of hurt than what I experienced with my first heartbreak (which is somewhat documented here). A different kind perhaps because it has really affected many different parts of me. It hurts my soul on a deep level, because I feel I am loving on a deeper more profound, mature level. This is not just about love lost or love not conquered, but it is about the slaughter of innocence. My innocence. I view love with openness, fondness, and am willing to embrace it at all costs. This may be THE experience, to force me to view love in a more realistic, less idealized way. But…I don’t want to. I am fighting that with all I have in me and it is this fight that is leaving me drained and torn…

This love of mine… I can’t help but view her in this Godly light. Is this naive of me? Is this what disillusions me? The mere thought of her presence at times, has moved me to tears. My last relationship, I didn’t have these intense profound feelings and it felt empty, and somewhat depressing. I don’t want that…These feelings I have now, is what I always wanted. I have tasted the love I have always dreamt of … and it was nothing short of amazing. I am devastated that it, for the time being, has been taken away.

It is as if I am shown the most beautiful painting in the world. Hanging this painting up in my room and looking at it, touching it, makes me feel peace like I have never felt before. A rush of calm. Beauty. Love. Hope. Life. Now, the artist violently took away this beautiful picture, but every now and again I am able to catch a glimpse of it whenever she allows me to. So I feel calm for a moment, but it is for that moment only. Once it is taken away again, I am back to a state of sheer panic. Everything is chaotic. And nothing makes sense. I am just trying to get that beautiful picture back…where I feel it belongs. Where it is safe and revered.

But the funny thing about this piece of artwork, is that each time it is shown to me, it comes back more damaged and tattered from being moved around so much. Soon, nothing of the original painting will be recognizable. It will no longer have the same beautiful effects on me, unless I save it. But how can you save something that doesn’t want to be saved?

That analogy may be really terrible… but…it is all I can come up with for now.
I will end here. There is much else going on in my life but I have for a long time, severely censored myself, so that is all for now.

I feel through music…so take a listen:

Frozen Pieces - Milosh

This is absolutely horrifying.

Published January 12, 2008 News , Thoughts Random 1 Comment
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Watch. Educate. Inspire. Change.

Now the video might be a little exaggerated on some accounts but the information about the North American Union is valid (and scary). For more information visit: http://www.zeitgeistmovie.com/

In addition, the film contains some really interesting information and theory regarding the link between Astrology/Early Civilization and religion (mainly Christianity); as well as a thorough examination of the events of 911.

I remember when I was a freshman at Fordham and Bush was elected I turned to my roommate and told her we are in for war on a massive scale. It was easy to predict Iraq but never did I think so many Americans would sit back idly while the government manipulates and distorts information. People are feeding into the bullshit (there’s no other word for it) and our civil liberties are slowly dissolving — and many are actually glad to let them go! For what? The sake of “national security”?

WAKE UP.

Site Spotlight; Thisisby.us (My new obsession)

Published October 11, 2007 Tech/Net Stuff 2 Comments
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I was casually browsing through Craigslist like I do almost everyday since leaving my old job (contact me if you know of anything!), and I stumbled across a posting for thisisby.us. It mentioned the opportunity to earn money but that isn’t what really interested me the most. I was curious to see the types of writings on the site, and liked the fact that it is a place that would offer you feedback on your posts, as well as providing your thoughts on other writers.

I browsed for 2.5 seconds and I was already hooked. I don’t know why I hadn’t found this place sooner, but so far–I’m addicted. There are tons of very talented writers on the site and I have enjoyed reading a lot of what I’ve come across. I think and hope it will force me to write more, and most importantly, become a better writer.

My username is Daniwrites on the site and you can find me here .

Let me know if you are on the site as well!

Food Review: Bertolli Frozen Dinner Bags

Published October 4, 2007 Food 2 Comments
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I have been waking up around 6-7am no matter what time I go to sleep as of late which is a bit odd for me but I do like it a hell of a lot better than sleeping the morning away. So as I was lying in bed wondering if I should go back to sleep or not –I remembered that we had one of these Bertolli Frozen Dinners in the freezer and I had always been curious to see how it would taste. So I did the only logical thing, and went downstairs to prepare it.

It may be a little strange to be making this meal at 8:30 in the morning but I’m not the most conventional of people. I’m a little annoyed at myself that I didn’t take pictures of the process but I will borrow some from other sources.

The Flavor: Grilled Chicken Alfredo

Contents: Fettuccine, Alfredo Sauce, Portobello Mushrooms, and Tomatoes.

Now, when I opened the bag things looked a little strange. Everything was frozen separately as the sauce came in blocks, the pasta was also in several bundles, and then the tomatoes and mushrooms also seemed to be separately frozen. From Top Chef, I learned this makes for a more even and cohesive reheating process. It just doesn’t look like it would taste that good.

(Photo Courtesy of smittenkitchen.com)
For someone who can’t cook (but I’m learning!), this is a dream process. All that is required is a non-stick skillet, something to turn the contents and 10 minutes of your time. It literally only took 10 minutes! Just pour everything in, cover and let it heat for 5 minutes, stir, cover for another 5–and viola! It’s ready.

(Photo Courtesy of smittenkitchen.com)

I was a little skeptical because I didn’t really like the smell of the food (a little too “garlicy” for my taste), and also–it was early in the morning so I kind of was not in the mood to eat pasta, but I had a taste and it was pretty decent. I am not that fond of mushrooms so I think the flavor of them ruined it a little bit for me, so I packaged up the rest of the pasta and put it in the fridge to cool (I hate steaming hot food as well).

10 minutes later–I took another bite and it was pretty tasty. I can see other people (who like garlic and mushrooms) to find it a lot better tasting than I did though. What was nice was that the pasta was perfectly al dente. These bags are supposed to serve two people, and well–I think it’s a little skimp but definitely enough if you offer up a side or at the least, some bread.

With all that being said–I am anxious to try some of the other offerings.

I’ll give it a 3.5 out of 5 for now.

Some others include:

  • Chicken alla Vodka & Farfalle
  • Chicken Parmigiana & Penne
  • Roasted Chicken & Linguine
  • Chicken Florentine & Farfalle

On a semi-related note. Tonight some friends will be cooking a nice home cooked dinner (I hear Chicken Cordon Bleu) so I am pretty darn excited about that! Perhaps I will review that dinner as well :)

The Aries Darkside.

Published October 3, 2007 Astrology , Books 2 Comments
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Recently, a friend of mine told me about this book; Darskide Zodiac by Stella Hyde so naturally I had to impulsively order it online. It describes in a blunt non sugar coating type of way different aspects of each sign as well as giving you some insight on your moon, rising, venus, etc. Some parts are pretty accurate but I wouldn’t say it is as accurate as The Secret Language of Relationships which breaks down your sign by week.

I find that Aries get a pretty bad rap in most Astrology books and sites. Loud, stubborn, aggressive, cocky assholes basically and hey–we aren’t all like that! Especially us early Aries. While this book kind of puts us in that brute/thug category–I did find myself laughing at some of the things written as they were kind of true.

On Punctuality:

“You are either 30 minutes early, raring to go, and incandescent that everyone else is late, or you turn up four days later at a different venue and are outraged that the expedition went without you”

My friends can attest to that. On the RARE occasion I am early (or on time), I am extremely annoyed and impatient about anyone else who is late.

On Personality:

“Have you ever willingly finished anything in your life? You’re just one big booster rocket, all fired up for blastoff, and falling away as soon as your boredom threshold (usually around sea level) is reached”

One of my pet peeves about myself. I am very enthusiastic in starting up something, then lose interest quickly, and sometimes just never get around to finishing it.

On Love/Relationships:

“…what you like best about dating is the chase.” (true)

“This glittering prize must not criticize anything you do…”

Yes it’s stereotypical of my sign, but I hate certain kinds of criticism but can also make fun of myself with others and love self deprecating humor…’tis tricky–I know.

“You always need to be told that you are the first (and naturally, best) lover that your partner’s ever had…”

Semi true, don’t care so much about the first part.

On Friendships:

Rules: ” 1) Do everything you say; 2) admire your every action; 3) never ever criticize anything you do.”

“…you get ragingly jealous if any of your friends demonstrates the slightest ability to do anything a nanometer better than you (and that includes breathing), or wins a prize in a competition you didn’t enter”

Sadly, this is a little bit true but just not to this extreme. The amount of information, yet alone rage I keep to myself for even the smallest things would probably shock most people I know. Luckily, I truly get over it quickly.

I also like the one word sentences used to describe what life would be like living with another sign.

Some examples:

Virgo: “Constantly tut-tutting under their breath about something they call bleach.”

Aquarius: “It’s OK because they are from planet Zog; so believe all Earthlings live like this.”

Capricorn: “Will put things away in a logical place do that you can never find them.”

Scorpio: “They step over your muck into the pristine minimalist cube of their own room.”

While I mention again–VERY stereotypical, it is humorous and a good coffee table book at the least.

I’ll recommend, just don’t hold any of the information against me.

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