Heh

when will we get the complete picture? or should i say when will we form the complete picture? sounds like a soccer team without teamwork, everyone is playing their own ball game. anyway, back from gentings, quite fun, at least for me.

give me your 100% and i will definitely give you mine. That's my promise and i hardly* lie.

- hardly* - usually if i lie, it would be a white lie. haha

Sometimes

sometimes u just have to wonder what people are thinking! whats going inside their head... whats scheming ideas they have, or exactly what are their plans, why things doesnt go the way u want and of course why u feel so different! the power of the emotions.. ta da!

Mum

No single word or a sentence is able to really express out how I and my sisters feel right now. There is no other channels to express out my feelings. I have to be independent, I got to show others and mummy that yes, mummy u can leave us without any worries, no regrets, Desmond is old enough, to live and survive alone together with the sisters in this world. Please do not worry about us anymore, fighting on is bringing more pain to yourself, As much as I want you to be with us throughout our time, I know I had already grown up from a child, that will not never be possible. Why do life have to end in such a manner? why do life have to take away someone so dear to us in such a painful manner? I do not understand. I understand the fact that people will die some day, but not in such a long painful agony manner. Mummy, I know u are still fighting on... we love you, but we do not want you to suffer anymore.. I tried to fightback my tears everytime I whisper in your ears.. to tell you to let go and be free... God, if there is really a God in this world, Please help my mum, save her from all the pain.. set her free.. I will be strong.

signed off, A heart-broken son

Angels or Devils

This is the last time
That I'm ever gonna come here tonight
This is the last time - I will fall
Into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
But fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time

The angels they burn inside for us
Are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
Are we ever gonna come back down
Come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

This is the last time
That I'm ever gonna give in tonight
Are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

BORING WEEKEND!

Clan TiKo!!




swee bo? Mr D did it!




8am, yes and i m still awake!! I got no idea how come i m not tired. watched a couple of movies online.. and i got to say shaun of the dead is fucking funny. lol really entertained me for quite awhile. Anyway, i got no idea to what else to blog. Some things are better left unsaid!

WTH

I have to blog this down, in case in future I cant remember it anymore haha. I just did my night shift and i went home to sleep. After which i dreamt... It goes like this ... :


I was in a room, more like a small hall, and one of my ex gf was doing a dance ( like erotic dance, or pole dancing) then alot of people crowding around her. She was looking at me with a kind of look.. and then i look across the hall and i saw my ex-gf, my ex-ex gf my ex-ex-ex gf.. aiya its like so many girls around. And suddenly all of them shouted " I miss u so much desmond!". hahahaha, wth. Suddenly one pair of twins ( i have never seen them in my whole life b4), came up to me and started talking ( i cant remember what they talk about). One girl in black walked past me and whispered "I really missed u". hahahahahaha, as the dream got spicer... MY HANDPHONE RANG. WTH.. i tried to go back to sleep after waking up to answer the call, but then to no avail. Instead I dreamt of something even crazier, I dreamt that i bought a diamond for $4k. after that i went to the counter staff and ask i thought it was only $800, he told me 1 diamond $800, the ring had 5 diamonds so its $4k!! hahahahaha. I woke up and faster go pee. night, gg back to sleep again!!

SUNDAY

I am alittle disappointed today because of several issues. Shall not elaborate, But i heard that I might have to stay in camp during sept/oct for 5 days! DAMN.. NO..BUT..no work??? MAYBE yes.. anyway I am freaking bored now because I am stuck at home. We got bowling competition tomorrow at 9am!! MAKE ME SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT!